A Childhood Memory
I sit at work with nothing much to do but to wait to take a screening interview.
Why am I here? I don't want to be relegated to fucking HR. I want to do more than just this. Get my hands dirty. Learn more and build more. But all I'm doing right now is timidly waiting for the day to end and going home.
Yet another call with a no-show. It's kind of annoying how much of my work has relegated to HR, just because it was a burning fire a while back. I don't think people get me. I don't mind working in these fields... but provide me with the freedom and flexibility to experiment with what I want.
Lossfunk is about to end in a week. And I cannot imagine what I will do without it. I need to have something on my hands, else the evenings will be too much of a bore for me.
A startup??? HEHEHEH.
But no, I'm applying for grants. It's clear that this project I've been working on has gathered some steam, so seeing it through is my prerogative.
I will be looking to get my license, of course, and Wednesday is my photoshoot. Amazing how corruption in India is now delivered to your doorstep! Truly Vikshit Bharat.
Vikshit reminds me of a kid called Dikshit. I remember getting into a fight with him and breaking his tooth. He'd moved out in 2015, I think. Funny! (We used to call him Soda Dikshit, despite me too wearing glasses)
Yesterday was Shivaratri. Glad I went to the temple too. It's unsettling to not go after you've had the thought, feels like you've cheated your loved one, and the guilt overwhelms. So I didn't want to do that with Lord Shiva, so I had a darshan at Dasashrama. Mom was disappointed that she didn't come, but I'm glad I went.
Bias for action, as they say!
I need to keep touching grass more. Meeting and making new friends. I remember speaking to a few cool ppl at the Anthropic event, maybe drop a hello to them? Hmm..... to stay cooped in like a bitch isn't a life worth living for either.
I forget what I wanted to write about. It was about a distinct but funny childhood memory but over the course of the day, the trail of thought slipped out of my head. Alas, it will now haunt my memory as I try to trace back to it :(
But on the other hand, I'm glad the bastard (the lead engg) is leaving. As a lurker, I couldn't help but look at his blog to see whether he might've cursed me for the purposeful trouble I kept giving him with Zoho Recruit (hate that shit), however, to my suprise he labels the company as
'deeply flawed, needs to fix the day-to-day culture and hygiene.' The sheer audacity.
It disgusts me to think that there are such despicable people out there. People who have done no wrong to them, yet fail to acknowledge the faults within themselves and make amends (a little hypocritical, but let me indulge). He instituted Zoho Recruit. He instituted an awkward work situation of communicating with him only through mail; he imposed this poor Zoho Sprints without resolving the issue from first principles. He left two first-time founders with an irreplaceable way of running things that, in all honesty, aren't how it's supposed to be run.
I cannot help but pin almost all the blame on him, but I'd also impose some of it on the founders, too. However, I'm glad he's quitting sooner rather than later.