A Lack of Direction
I'm finally managing to get some shit in order and does it feel great.
I would say it's a consequence of the content I'm consuming - The Founders Podcast, Seven Habits and now an obsession with consuming productive, impactful and insightful information that is leading to this. An increased focus on getting fit is also taking into shape (~20km) per week that I'm managing to run that has allowed me to embrace getting on track slowly, but concretely.
The lack of a routine is affecting me. My lack of a long-term goalpost is looming behind my back. While I have realised finance, in particular, credit is my goal the action is gradual. I need to study the greats. Understand this industry better than anyone else, work in it and then thrive. I've bought a book on the history of banking, but am yet to read it. 7 habits has gripped me, for which I have no regrets whatsoever.
The week was slow and unenthusiastic, particularly due to the lack of work. I'm trying to find some form of tasks to keep me engaged but the workplace just seems not charged. I recieved an inbound from a company I'd like to explore, but I think I'll need to tame my excitement as I am yet to recieve a reply. I'd like that job, particularly because it'd allow me to relocate from home.
It's not that home's bad either. But I want a taste of independent life. I want that suck-y part of life to come back because it helps me in becoming more able. I'd love to do my laundry, cook my meal and juggle an application for Masters + Job and crush them all. I don't like it that I'm sitting in comfort. Just doesn't sit right with me.
But life does seem to be going better, albeit the occasional hiccups. Most of them, self-brought upon but nonetheless are hiccups. I'd like to focus on now building better systems (schedules, reminders, to-dos) in order to keep my mind clearer and give me direction to act. The lack of direction really is killing me and I think picking a lane and sticking to it is essential.
For this month though, the goals are clear and on-track. Let's see how many of them I can meet.