Agitation
I'm super nervous. Ever since that second call I had, I've tried my best to assure myself it'll all go right. But my dominant pessimistic behaviour urges me to keep worrying. To let it takeover my life thinking that this opportunity is a be-all, end-all.
Going to the temple in such occasions usually cheers me up. I sort of realise that whatever happens, it isn't under my control and I cheerily leave it up to fate.
However, I really want this. A cool team, fun field and relatively decent workload implies a great learning experience. I do really want this job. I sure as hell should get a positive response! HMMMMM
Let's wait and watch. I want it to slip out of my mind, but it still stays. I try my hardest but it still persists. Maybe writing it will help me, but I need to be focused on my long-term goal.
I will land this. Come on div.